and lonely.
not with kyle.
hes great.
but my babies. my beautiful baby cats.
i had four. and then two kittens came.
orion, mustache, marlboro, and val for valiant. they were only a year. old.
and the kittens lil o (or oshi) and lil v were only 3 months.

ill be posting pictures of them soon.
i do hope no matter where they are they know im thinking of them and crying for them and missing them.

we had to take them to the animal control place in edwardsville becuase wmy mom wouldnt let me take one to our new trailer she got us, cuase we couldnt afford to get them there shots and stuff.

it was the most horrible experience of my life.
seeing them scared. i guess i shouldtn think about what they were feeling, but its hard.
its like i was intune to them.

there gone now though.
the man at the shelter siad theres a good chance they would get put down,
and im sure they did.
there not there anymore.
i dont know how im going to deal with this.
but ill get through.
somehow.
i know i dont want another cat for awhile.
if ever.


i love you guys, orion mustache, val, marbles, lil o, and lil v.
you will ALWAYS be in our hearts.